update xx

Hi guys,
so i have been away for a while, where have i been?
Well i have been here there and everywhere, i had the opportunity to go watch my home town reach the premier league at Wembly with my partner, i have been working, but most of all i have been spending much needed time with family!

I am going to post at the weekend the meal and smoothie recipes for you and a little insight on how it was at Wembly, but today i am just gong to be doing a little post on some of the things that are important in life.

What is it that is important?, well friends and family for one. First of all its good to have friends, the ones who are always there for you no matter what, the ones that will randomly just message you to ask how you are without you have to message them first, the ones who will ask if you want to meet up for a coffee or to invite you round for a chat and a brew without you having to always try to arrange something and get turned down, the ones who you might not see for ages but when you meet up its like you saw them just yesterday, the ones who know your family may be going through a difficult time but they message you anyway to see how you and everyone else is doing, the ones that are able to pull up the embarrassing photos or tell the funny stories of brilliant memories/events you shared, the ones you can talk to for hours but it feels like 10 minutes, the ones who you trust with your children, basically the ones who are there when you need them, who dont expect you to always be the one to text or call first and to actually make an effort to be your friend and be there.

Family... you always feel family are going to be there, you dont ring or call them all the time and when you bump into each other you chat and laugh  and promise to meet up but then life gets in the way, you may be working and sorting the children out and not have enough time in the day to go visiting, they could live far away and you may not drive or not have enough money to go visit, they may even just live round the corner but before you know it months have passed and the visit still hasn't happened. Family are important they are a part of you, you may not get on with all you family but the ones you do its so nice to keep in touch, i'm so bad for keeping in touch with my family, i'm always at my mums but i'm so bad for visiting everyone else, sometimes i'm stubborn and say well they never come to see me at my house so why should i always go and visit their house, or they drive and i dont so its easier for them, but when you think about it that's just a stupid reason,
spend more time with the ones you love........

one more thing i want to add is you may see the cover photo for this post on Instagram or Facebook (if not i will post it below too) and wonder what it has to do with this post, well i feel it fits and here is why, the picture is of woodland, it looks dark maybe even scary to some people, and that is what life is like,  sometimes life is dark and scary and you can feel lost, everywhere you turn it can feel like there is no way out, also in the picture is a path, you can be in control and choose which path in life you want to take, the woods can also be a beautiful place full of life and nature, friends and family can help lead you out or you can stand tall and follow the path to your own future.

A lot have things have happened recently in London and Manchester and all over the rest of the world that doesn't get documented on the news, some people dont have the chance to follow their destiny or walk alongside friends and family but to those that do we all need to be there for everyone, offer support and spread the love, life is precious make the most of it!

Chezney 💓💓💓

Busy Busy Busy

SOOOOOO

Been a little busy lately, had a brainstorming session with my best friend about our blogs and stuff and i am finally getting my you-tube channel started.........

I have been thinking about starting a you-tube channel for a while just because i am simply a massive fan and watch it everyday and its honestly something i am interested in trying, if i try and it doesn't work out for me then hey, at least i tried and didn't just leave it and always wonder what if!!

I need to make an intro video first then i will post my very first video, i have thought about some video ideas and i am quite excited. I'n not going to say that all the videos will be about the same thing they will be pretty random but like i said in my you-tube description "not everybody is uniform", so yeah i have that to look forward to very soon.

I said earlier i have brainstormed about ideas for my blog, i am also really excited to start posting about some of them ideas very soon, i just have to organize and schedule the dates of when i want to do what, some of the ideas wont take place until the summer time but quite a few of them will be sorted and uploaded hopefully in the coming weeks. I plan to get a little time to myself where i can go to the library, hide away upstairs and spread out on the big tables in the quite room and get writing its the perfect place (i have already been in the room and decided where about's i want to sit ha ha).

After i have sorted the scheduling for my blog and you-tube and made my first videos etc i also want to kick start my creative writing. I have always wanted to write a short story or poems and eventually work up to maybe a full book. I have always loved writing and i would often write poems for my friend and have wrote one for a close friend when she passed away and also for family to put in their cards etc. I myself find it easy and so comforting to write and once i start i dont want to stop, my partner has suggested a few good ideas to get me started poem wise and i think i might just start writing a shot story and share a bit of it and see where get with that and what people think.

So yeah a lot of things going on, along with the normal day to day life of work and raising two little ones with my fantastic partner.

Going to head off now, hopefully be back soon with an update of how far i have got

happy mothers day to all the lovely ladies out there too hope you all had a lovely day 

Chezney xxx 

My day today!

Do you ever feel exhausted for no reason?.... Like literally no reason at all, you slept in late and then have basically just sat around. I mean you have done little stuff like maybe go to the shop, make dinner, tidy up a bit, but then you sit down and feel you can sleep for a 1000 days lol. That's what my day has been like today! Maybe it's because I'm used to doing something everyday and being out the house but when I got up this morning I just thought today is a lazy day.... Everyone is entitled to a lazy day arnt they, the problem is when you get stuck in that mood and every day turns into a lazy day. Well I have had my one lazy day and tomorrow it's back to being fresh as a daisy and getting out of this house!!!

Lazy days can be relaxing and chilled then some lazy days can just turn wrong... My lazy day was ok watched loads of tv, chilled with my girls, messaged friends. But I've had them lazy days that have gone wrong... Maybe you know the ones.... The ones where you just sit and think about everything you think is wrong in your life and let everything get on top of you.... The ones where you feel like your the only person left in a world that is pitch black and silent..... The ones where you feel no one will understand you and you wouldn't want to have to talk to someone to try and make them understand. I hate them days and I hate it when I know someone else has them days but I'm not close enough to help them through it.

I have made a friend in the last few months, we were introduced through our partners and I can honestly say I feel like I have known her for my whole life, she and I understand each other so much, we are the same in many ways and it was today when she sent me a lovely picture message that said there are some people who could hear you speak a thousand words and still not understand you. And there are others who will understand without you even speaking a word. That I truely knew we would be friends forever, it's so lovely to have someone in your life that you know can be there for you and cheer you up just by sending a message that she knows will make me laugh like a picture of her lil cheeky one doing something crazy. It's people like these who you don't want to let go, people like this who can make you a better person, people like this who can walk down the same path as you in the darkness and hold your hand when you need to find your way, because they have walked down it many times before.

Your mind can be a dark cruel place but if you have that one person that can understand it's like lighting a candle in the dark.

I have so many thoughts and feelings I can share but I will save them for another day....

Chezney ❤️