My day today!

Do you ever feel exhausted for no reason?.... Like literally no reason at all, you slept in late and then have basically just sat around. I mean you have done little stuff like maybe go to the shop, make dinner, tidy up a bit, but then you sit down and feel you can sleep for a 1000 days lol. That's what my day has been like today! Maybe it's because I'm used to doing something everyday and being out the house but when I got up this morning I just thought today is a lazy day.... Everyone is entitled to a lazy day arnt they, the problem is when you get stuck in that mood and every day turns into a lazy day. Well I have had my one lazy day and tomorrow it's back to being fresh as a daisy and getting out of this house!!!

Lazy days can be relaxing and chilled then some lazy days can just turn wrong... My lazy day was ok watched loads of tv, chilled with my girls, messaged friends. But I've had them lazy days that have gone wrong... Maybe you know the ones.... The ones where you just sit and think about everything you think is wrong in your life and let everything get on top of you.... The ones where you feel like your the only person left in a world that is pitch black and silent..... The ones where you feel no one will understand you and you wouldn't want to have to talk to someone to try and make them understand. I hate them days and I hate it when I know someone else has them days but I'm not close enough to help them through it.

I have made a friend in the last few months, we were introduced through our partners and I can honestly say I feel like I have known her for my whole life, she and I understand each other so much, we are the same in many ways and it was today when she sent me a lovely picture message that said there are some people who could hear you speak a thousand words and still not understand you. And there are others who will understand without you even speaking a word. That I truely knew we would be friends forever, it's so lovely to have someone in your life that you know can be there for you and cheer you up just by sending a message that she knows will make me laugh like a picture of her lil cheeky one doing something crazy. It's people like these who you don't want to let go, people like this who can make you a better person, people like this who can walk down the same path as you in the darkness and hold your hand when you need to find your way, because they have walked down it many times before.

Your mind can be a dark cruel place but if you have that one person that can understand it's like lighting a candle in the dark.

I have so many thoughts and feelings I can share but I will save them for another day....

Chezney ❤️