Down moods

Been a good day but had down moods today, when u feel you have done wrong to friends, just paranoia, when your away from your partner, loneliness
When you just feel down and sad 😞
Can't be bothered writing the rest.... Maybe tomorrow!

Chezney ❤️

Travelling disaster!!!

Travelling don't you just hate it sometimes! Why does it have to turn out to be soooo stressful sometimes urgghhhh. I'm literally so frustrated right now it's unbelievable. So I am travelling down to my mother in laws for the week with the girls, first stop is my sister in laws, we load the car and everything, set off and the journey ain't too bad we finally get there about 1hr 45ish minutes later and bring the case and duvet in etc, sit there for about 10 minutes and the mother in law brings in some thing she has bought the girls pyjamas etc, then it dawns on me..... I look towards my partner and say please tell me you packed their trunkie with all their clothes in cause I didn't ?
Yeah....
YEAH!!!! That's right their trunkie wasn't packed I was so angry, frustrated, annoyed, upset it's so bad my partner has to work so he is going home and I'm getting the train with my mother in law to her house. Soooooo now I have to buy them ALL NEW CLOTHES for the bloody week.... I'm so wounded right now I could cry. You know when you pack them the nicest clothes too especially because I was informed that it was going to be hot, so they had little dresses, summery tops etc. Now i hope my partner has a few days free because he said he would come see us then he can bring the trunkie with him. GOSH!!!!!
I am trying to be positive too but it's still in the back of my mind I'm legit really upset it's not bloody fair 😞😞😞. I had the perfect outfits for the beach and water park and everything I swear if I could drive I would drive the 6 hours it takes from my mother in laws and go home just to pick it up. Now I'm on the train and I at least have a seat until the stop before mine, then the rightful owner will come on and kick me out of it (person who booked the seat 😂) i don't mind though I'll only have to stand up till the next stop.
It's funny how little things can get you down so much, it hasn't bothered the girls that I left their clothes and my partner and mother in law say just buy some more but I'm heartbroken lol. Now onwards with my journey for the next 3 or so hours till I reach our destination. Then I'll let you in on the fun we have x

Chezney ❤️

My day today!

Do you ever feel exhausted for no reason?.... Like literally no reason at all, you slept in late and then have basically just sat around. I mean you have done little stuff like maybe go to the shop, make dinner, tidy up a bit, but then you sit down and feel you can sleep for a 1000 days lol. That's what my day has been like today! Maybe it's because I'm used to doing something everyday and being out the house but when I got up this morning I just thought today is a lazy day.... Everyone is entitled to a lazy day arnt they, the problem is when you get stuck in that mood and every day turns into a lazy day. Well I have had my one lazy day and tomorrow it's back to being fresh as a daisy and getting out of this house!!!

Lazy days can be relaxing and chilled then some lazy days can just turn wrong... My lazy day was ok watched loads of tv, chilled with my girls, messaged friends. But I've had them lazy days that have gone wrong... Maybe you know the ones.... The ones where you just sit and think about everything you think is wrong in your life and let everything get on top of you.... The ones where you feel like your the only person left in a world that is pitch black and silent..... The ones where you feel no one will understand you and you wouldn't want to have to talk to someone to try and make them understand. I hate them days and I hate it when I know someone else has them days but I'm not close enough to help them through it.

I have made a friend in the last few months, we were introduced through our partners and I can honestly say I feel like I have known her for my whole life, she and I understand each other so much, we are the same in many ways and it was today when she sent me a lovely picture message that said there are some people who could hear you speak a thousand words and still not understand you. And there are others who will understand without you even speaking a word. That I truely knew we would be friends forever, it's so lovely to have someone in your life that you know can be there for you and cheer you up just by sending a message that she knows will make me laugh like a picture of her lil cheeky one doing something crazy. It's people like these who you don't want to let go, people like this who can make you a better person, people like this who can walk down the same path as you in the darkness and hold your hand when you need to find your way, because they have walked down it many times before.

Your mind can be a dark cruel place but if you have that one person that can understand it's like lighting a candle in the dark.

I have so many thoughts and feelings I can share but I will save them for another day....

Chezney ❤️